Day 4 Meal Plan

Breakfast
Yogurt
Strawberries
1 red 1 purple

Snack
Carrots
2 eggs
1 green 1 red 

Lunch
stir fry veggies
chicken
1 red 1 green 1 teaspoon

Snack
Pear
Almonds
1 purple 1 blue

Supper
Veggies
Noodles
Tuna
Wine
1 green 1 red 2 yellow 2 orange 1 teaspoon 

Fix recommended totals
3    2    4    2    1    1    2    
Plan totals

3    2    4    2    1    2    2    

Fatigued

This morning sucked.

I work mostly night shifts, but Thursdays and Fridays I work morning shifts. It's exhausting, and a nice, heavy breakfast is how I get out of bed when my body is used to working nights. 

Last night I had a headache, even though I drank a lot of water. I felt my stomach growling when I was going to sleep. I woke up feeling like crap, I was sore, and I sucked at my exercise video. Breakfast with no carbs. Bleh. Trudged into work feeling half dead.

I hope that I start feeling like I have energy again.

I miss carbs.

Day 3 Meal Plan

Breakfast
Eggs & Soldiers
2 soft-boiled eggs with salt and pepper
1 piece whole wheat toast, cut in "soldiers" for dipping
1 red 1 yellow 

Snack
Yogurt
Raspberries
1 red 1 purple

Lunch (late)
Lemon-herb sardine salad by Martha Stewart
Celery, chopped
Dressing: EVOO, lemon juice, Dijon mustard, capers, salt, pepper
Tarragon
Parsley
Sardines
1 red 1 green 1 orange 1 teaspoon

Supper
Stuffed quinoa bell peppers by Tarnya Carrier Fitness
Bell pepper
Quinoa
Ground turkey sautéed with onion, garlic, cumin, chili powder
Stewed tomatoes
Mozzarella
1 red 2 green 1 teaspoon 1 yellow 1 blue

Dessert
Pineapple
1 purple

Fix recommended totals
3    2    4    2    1    1    2    
Plan totals
3    2    4    2    1    1    2    

SHAKEOLOGY FAIL

So, I ordered my Shakeology 10 days ago.

First I got an email saying it would arrive in 2-5 days. Then I got an email saying it would arrive by today.

It didn't.

I checked the FedEx tracker, and it didn't even ship! They only made a shipping label.

This pisses me off. They're sending it tomorrow, supposedly to arrive in 2-3 days. But if that's 3 days it won't even arrive until next week.

LAME.

Lame, lame, lame.

I got conned into spending $150 on some shakes, and they can't even get them to me until I'm a third of the way through the program?

Major fail.

I seriously wonder how many people place orders that don't get filled, and then they just lose interest or forget about it and Beachbody pockets $150 for nothing.

This is not confidence inspiring.

UPDATE

Beachbody says they'll give me a box of P90X protein bars for the inconvenience. Not sure what I'll do with those. It looks on like those bars are allowed but discouraged on the 21 Day Fix. And it's not like I want to eat protein bars anyway.

Lame.

Day 2 Meal Plan

I ended up changing plans mid-day after I mis-measured some vegetables. Oh, well! It worked out.

Breakfast
2 soft-boiled eggs
1 piece whole-wheat toast
1 red 1 yellow

Snack
Baby carrots
1 green

Lunch
Bagged stir fry vegetables
Mushrooms
Baked chicken breast with Asian rub (five-spice, garlic powder)
Stir fry "dressing": Shaoxing cooking wine, olive oil, soy sauce, minced garlic & serrano
Pineapple
2 green 1 red 1 purple 1 orange 1 teaspoon

Snack
Yogurt
Strawberries
1 red 1 purple

Supper
Quinoa with spice blend
Tilapia
Pecans
1 yellow 1 red 1 teaspoon 1 blue 

Fix recommended totals
3    2    4    2    1    1    2    
Plan totals
3    2    4    2    1    1    2    

MISTAKES

Only one willful deviation from Fix recommendations: the stir fry "dressing." There isn't really much accommodation for Asian-style foods in the Eating Plan. But I don't see any serious nutritional impact here compared to the other dressings. I also should note that I didn't use this as a dressing but added the ingredients separately in the stir fry.

I try to feel bad about being out of shape

... but I just can't.

Today is my second day of the workout videos. Arms Day.

I totally suck at these videos.

And I'm oddly at peace with it.

I really shouldn't be. I used to be in quite good shape. I was a proper hiker. When I was approaching 8 months pregnant, I hiked almost to the top of Mount Olympus, a big mountain next to Salt Lake City. The only reason I couldn't finish is that I couldn't reach around my belly to climb the rocks. I had gained 4,000 feet of elevation.

That was the last big hike I've done. It was 2 1/2 years ago.

I tried to take up hiking again with my daughter in a backpack, but it hasn't gone well. I also tried some other exercise programs. But it's all been totally demoralizing. I ended up feeling like a failure. A loser. Miserable. Don't even get me started on CrossFit.

So when I started running out of steam 10 minutes into the first 21 Day Fix video, I thought I'd be so bummed. There was Autumn Calabrese, bouncing around and yelling at me not to quit while I was gasping and wincing and leaning on furniture.

But rather than feeling bad, I thought, "Oh, well. I'm out of shape. I'll start the next exercise and go as long as I can. Maybe I'll do better next time. Maybe not. Just get through the video."

I didn't feel proud at the end, but I also didn't feel bad for stopping the exercises early. Maybe I should be harder on myself. But I just can't muster the energy for that.

I am where I am.

Day 1 Meal Plan

I made this before I got my booklet, so some things are not totally within regulation.

Breakfast
Eggs & Soldiers
2 soft-boiled eggs with salt and pepper
1 piece whole wheat toast, cut in "soldiers" for dipping
a bit of Brummel on toast
1 red 1 yellow 1 teaspoon

Snack
10 baby carrots
1 green

Lunch
Mango Salad from Richard Hebenstreit
Arugula
Mango
Lime juice & EVOO dressing
A bit of minced serrano pepper
Spicy baked tilapia from Committed to Getting Fit
1 green 1 purple 1 orange 1 red 1 teaspoon

Snack
Yogurt
Raspberries
1 red 1 purple

Supper
Cod & Brussels Sprouts in Garlic Cream, from French Foodie Baby
Cod with slice of pancetta
Caraway seeds
Brussels sprouts roasted in EVOO
Mashed garlic and cream
1 red 1 green 1 teaspoon 1 yellow 1 blue
(I counted the garlic cream & pancetta together as a yellow treat substitute and blue dairy since I didn't know I was restricted to specific ingredients when I made this day's plan)

Fix recommended totals
3    2    4    2    1    1    2    
Plan totals
3    2    4    2    1    1    3    

MISTAKES

Some were made. I thought the containers represented food groups generally, not a list of foods. Apparently Brummel isn't on it. Neither is arugula. Or serrano pepper. Or garlic cream sauce. Or pancetta. Or salt (although salt is in the spice mixes). And I knowingly added an oil teaspoon. I could probably scrap the Brussels sprouts EVOO next time.